Memorial Day Weekend and a Note on the Future

This past weekend was nice and the calm before the storm, so to speak.  I went to my parent's house about an hour away and had a small cookout with one of my current roommates and an older couple.  We had burgers and veggies straight from the grill.  This current week, I will be going to new employee days, taking a dosage math test, getting drug tested, and signing contracts.  All just to be your friendly neighborhood nurse!  Then, hopefully this weekend I am moving to my very own little blue cottage before I start my first real, adult-y job on Monday.

Today's plan is to pack pack pack.  I recently stole a stack of boxes from behind the local Walmart and I have about five bins I can use.  This would probably be much easier if I were organized.

I've been thinking a lot about change lately.  Those of you that know me know that I have an aversion to change.  This time around though, it feels ok.  I am staying in the same area so even though I'm starting a new job where I could plausibly kill people accidentally and I'm moving residences, I feel kind of excited.  The dread I feel comes from the initialization of it all.  The process of moving.  The first week of work.  Those things make my pulses speed up a bit.

Something I reflect on:

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind."
"The Bible.  2 Timothy 1:7

A picture from my recent graduation 

The Winds of Change

Today there are tornado warnings all throughout the area that I live in and one of my best friends and roommate is packing up to move away tomorrow.  Also, tomorrow I will go and sign the lease to my very first rent house, my first "grown-up" house post-college and I am tentatively slated to start working as a Graduate Nurse on June 3, 2013.

Wow.

Those winds of change, they are a-blowing.

I feel fear.  Anxiety.  Excitement.  Dread.  Resolute.  All these things mixed into one mood and all I really want is a big bowl of popcorn and a movie night with all the ones I love.

I keep telling myself, "Change is good.  Change is good".  And I think it is.  My future is bright and I have nothing to fear.

"The only way that we can live, is if we grow.  The only way that we can grow is if we change.  The only way that we can change is if we learn.  The only way we learn is if we are exposed.  And the only way that we can become exposed is if we throw ourselves out into the open.  Do it.  Throw yourself."
-C. Joybell C.